Who would’ve thought that watching City Slickers with my man on a Wednesday night would be such a life changing experience?
*insert billy crystal gif here*
To say that I related to Billy Crystal’s character would be a total understatement. With every word he said, facial expression he gave, and action he took, either I would turn to my dude and say “is that me??” Or he would turn to me and ask the same. I understood how he felt, having a standard life that he just wasn’t ok with. I understood his feeling like there has to be something more out there.
And then my man Curly went and said to him, “the meaning to life is just one thing.” When Billy Crystal asked what that one thing was, Curly replied, “that’s for you to find out.” By the end of the movie, Billy Crystal found out exactly what that one thing is, but was rude enough to not share with the audience.
You could tell that his trip with his friends had changed him completely. He understood that there was more to life than he had known about before, and he was ready to live his renewed life.
Y’all. I’m Molly, and I’m ready to find out what my one thing is.
This actually isn’t a new venture for me, I’ve been searching for “something more” for the past four years. Every time I think I get close, I realize I have gotten closer, but I’m still not there yet. Every time I think that I’ve figured it out, I realize that I’m still just as lost.
I went from big name gym personal trainer to self employed health coach to meal prep company store manager to mindset coach in the past few years. Each thing I tried has gotten me one step closer, and mindset coaching seemed to be my one thing, but it may be more like one thing of many. I love mindset work, I’m a self proclaimed self improvement junkie, and I love empowering women to ditch what they think they should be doing and to follow their dreams. I’m just not sure if I want to do this whole insta-chick-entrepreneur-sell-myself-for-clients thing forever.
Mindset coaching was my way to say screw off to the “should be’s” and expectations of my life and to pursue my own path. But recently, I realized that I haven’t fully released these expectations, I just transferred them from what everyone else expected of me to what I thought I should expect of myself. My career is fulfilling, and I love seeing my clients thrive, but I can’t help but think “there’s gotta be something more.”
I recently dug back into my self discovery work, specifically wracking my brain to uncover what my purpose is. I know the questions to ask, I literally coach women on asking themselves these questions on the reg, but I hadn’t taken the time to really answer these questions myself. Until now, and I found out a few things that really surprised me.
**feel free to use these questions to dig deeper into yourself. 10/10 highly recommend**
“What did your 8 year old self love to do?”
As a kid, I spent my days exploring the woods behind my house. I would spend hours, by myself or with friends, walking through the woods or following the creek that ran through it, picking up any cool rocks along the way. I was a horseback rider and loved being at the barn. My favorite times on my horse were trail rides, where I rode through the woods and explored it all. When I grew up a bit, one of my favorite things to do was take my dog into the woods or hiking with me.
“What is one thing you do that causes you to be so immersed into it that you forget to eat?”
Writing, hands down. I have two mostly done manuscripts for books that are over 20,000 words each, and that I wrote in almost no time flat. Time flies when I’m writing, and I have literally forgotten to eat most of the days I spend writing.
“If you only had one year left to live, how would you spend that year?”
This one was much easier than I expected: I would spend my year traveling the world, exploring other lands and cultures.
Between Billy Crystal and these questions, it was clear to me: the answers I’m looking for lie in the adventures that I stopped taking.
I let my fear of disappointing all of the expectations thrust upon me by either the world or by myself stop me from living. As my girl Hilary Duff says not to do in A Cinderella Story, I let my fear of striking out keep me from playing the game. My passion as a child was being outside and finding new places, my love as I grew up was adventuring, and as I continued to grow, I let the fear of the world stop me from exploring.
So, as the title of this blog says, I’m on the move for more. I’m done being a passive bystander in my life, I’m done waiting for life to happen to me, and I’m ready to start living. I am committing to adventures, to exploring, and to finding my one thing that life is all about.
My goal for this blog? Combine my passions and find what I’m looking for. Time stops when I write and time flies when I adventure. I can’t think of a better way to find my meaning of life than to combine the two things that light me up. And hopefully, my pursuit for my purpose will give you a spark that you need to go and find yours, to combine all three of my passions in one little webpage.