Ts&Rs?? Thoughts and Reflections, babe!
I didn’t have a car, but ya girl found ways to get around!
This was a solid week for exploring Molly, much more so than the first few days at least.
On Tuesday, the original plan was to take my man to work and then take the car to go explore. Unfortunately, with his wild schedule, there was no way to guarantee I could come snag him with my client calls, so I had to ixnay that idea. The plan then changed to Thursday being my day that I can steal the car, so I figured I was stuck in the house all day. Lo and behold, my best friend came through big time today. She was heading to the Zoo with the adorable little boy she babysits, and I was invited to tag along.
Even though I was still not really free, between being picked up and having to watch what I say around a small child, I felt much more free and abundant than I have in weeks. It was amazing to get out of the house. It was incredible to have the freedom to take a spontaneous trip to the zoo before my work starts. It was so great to see all of the animals (and get to interact with them! I fed stingrays, y’all!). It was so cute to watch this little boy, as shy as he was around me, enjoy seeing all of the animals that you don’t get to see every day. Everything about it was perfect.
On Wednesday, I ventured out to the beach. With the full moon in Pisces happening the night before, the beach just seemed like the place to be, and I was right.
Indian Rocks beach is my all time favorite beach. It’s only about 15 minutes further than the best beach in America, Clearwater Beach, but it is way more my vibe. I like to think of it as the local best beach in America, and it did not let me down today.
With children being back in school, virtual or not, the beach was dead. I could count the number of people on the beach around us on one hand, and that’s really the way I like it. The beach is my calm place. I love hearing the sound of the waves, floating in the flow of the ocean, and the beauty of the shells that litter the beach, it’s all just a perfect flow. I was able to sit in the ocean for almost two hours, floating up and down with the waves, and feeling like I was connected with Mother Nature as I bobbed. It was fantastic.
My thoughts from this week are that I have so much to fucking learn.
In the past year I have done so much, grown through so much, and pushed so hard towards something that I don’t feel connected to anymore. I am realizing that there is so. Much. More out there for me, and I haven’t even scraped the surface. My purpose may still be the same, but the way I fulfill that purpose may be totally different from how I was expecting. As a recovering control freak (listen y’all, I’m trying), I am still in the process of coming to terms with the fact that I will never know the exact path that I will take in realizing my purpose. This awakening moment, and starting out on this journey to more, has more than shown that.
In the past two weeks, I have realized that the life I am dreaming of is completely different from the life I once thought I wanted.
My word for September is allow. This journey has more than proven that to be true. I am open to allowing my path to unfold as it does. I am open to allowing the uncertainty of my path to show me the way. I am open to allowing myself to change and adapt as I continue to learn and grow. I allow my path to be shown in due time, and I trust that I’m exactly where I should be.
I’m excited for the adventures my life holds. I see how different just the intention to explore and live makes my life, and I can’t wait to continue to explore, learn, and grow. This was a solid first week, and we’re just getting started.