Weekly Ts&Rs

Weekly Ts&Rs

Last Saturday, I got to go adventure with my dude. Our first real date, almost three years ago, was kayaking. In the past three years, we’ve gone to the beach, we’ve taken the dogs, we’ve gone on road trips together, but we’re only gone back kayaking once. Until Saturday when we finally went back on the water together.

There’s nothing like floating on the water, just basking in the sun. You’re flowing with the current, the waves, and the tide, and you just feel like one with the water. I was relaxed, I was happy, I was at total and complete peace. To make it even better, I was at total peace with the love of my life. In those few hours on the water, I felt like I had almost figured it out. It was the closest to pure happiness that I think I’ve ever felt, it just felt right.

Along with kayaking on Saturday, I went to my other happy place on Wednesday: Disney! One of my absolute favorite things about living in FL, along with being so close to the water, is being just as close to Disney World. There’s something about Disney that just makes you feel like a kid again, and gives you that sense of carefree, full body happiness. I’m grateful for my annual pass, which allows me to visit the parks without straining the wallet, and my best friend for loving Disney just as much as I do.

We went to Hollywood Studios and spent the day sweating our butts off, but having a blast. The newest ride to open at Disney is a Star Wars based ride, with about 13 different hoops to jump through just to reserve a spot for it, but guess who made it happen? We did. The ride was nothing like I had ever experienced before, it was completely immersive and an actual experience, not just a ride. It allowed me to truly release any stress or worry I had been carrying with me, and I just enjoyed the hell out of it.

I’ve been noticing that the more I focus on my happiness, and what my higher self is calling me to do, the more I want to work. But I have no desire to be on social media. I have no desire to further my social media presence right now. What I’ve learned from my time at the beach and on the water, which is where I’ve felt the most at peace, is to flow, just like the water around me. Rather than swim against the current, and try to force myself to pursue something that I’m not energetically behind right now, I’m allowing the tide of my energy to take me to where I want to be.

Right now, the tide of my life has taken me to do exactly what I’m doing right now. I want to write, I want to sit in front of the computer for hours at the beginning of the day and watch the words flow. I want to spill the words that fly around my brain onto the page, and I want to use these words to inspire and change lives. With each day, I can feel that I’m getting closer and closer to my one thing. I won’t say I’m there yet, not at all, and I won’t say that I’m even close, but I feel myself getting closer to it.

And we’re off! Sort of…

And we’re off! Sort of…

During the week, my exploring and adventuring is limited.

I share a car with my fiancé, and he works Monday through Friday, 8-4 at the very earliest, with a 40 minute drive home. I go for a walk around my neighborhood and go sit by the lake in my apartment complex, but that’s the extent of the exploring during the week. Weekday adventuring will be something that I have to plan and prepare for, and since this is my first week of living life looking for more, I wasn’t prepared.

Turns out, I wasn’t really prepared for the weekend either.

I assumed that it would be easy to go out and do some exploring. I mean, I have the car, I have the time, I’m ready to rock and roll, right?

Something I wasn’t expecting to experience: I don’t really know how to explore anymore.

What do you do? Do you just get in the car and drive? Do you have a destination in mind? Do you just see where the drive takes you? What do I do with my hands right now? I was thinking I could just get out of the house and go onwards to adventure, but I realized pretty quickly that either I’m overthinking it or I’m underprepared (And let’s be real, it’s probably both)

In thinking about it, there’s three types of exploring really: the long trips, the day trips and the spontaneous drives.

The long trips are your overnighters. The road trips out of state, the plane rides, anything where you sleep not at your house, those are all overnighters. The goal is to get these into rotation soon, but we are not even close to there yet. As Bob Wiley says in What About Bob?: baby steps.

And on that note, many of my references are going to come from 80’s movies because my dude is an 80’s babe through and through. He loves his Bill Murray, Tom Hanks, and Jon Hughes, so we watch them a lot. I love me some comedy, so expect plenty of those references as well. I pretty much can live my life through movie quotes.

Anyways, segue number one out of the way and we’re back to the types of exploring.

The day trips are those destinations you can hit up in a few hours and still be back to sleep in your own bed. In Florida, there’s plenty of day trip places, but you still need to prepare to go to them. Wake up early, pack some food, have a day free, etc. The beaches are only about 30 minutes away from me, but I was not prepared for that today either. It was 10am, I had to be back by 1pm, and this was just a quick little trip.

Which brings us to today’s adventures: the spontaneous drive.

This is when you just get in the car and go. Maybe you have a destination in mind or maybe you just drive through the streets of your neighborhood and look at the houses. 

Today, I used an app called Randonautica to guide me. And yall, this app is so ridiculously cool. It works through quantum points, which I cannot explain anymore about because I am not a quantum physicist, I’m a chick who likes the mystical and unexplainable. It doesn’t mean I can explain it. Basically, you tell the app your location and you focus really strongly on your intent (aka what it is you’re looking to see) and it plots a point on your map based on that. 

If you’re reading this and second guessing it, I totally get it. But y’all, it works. It’s shown my fiancé and I things relating to us that we can’t even begin to explain, and it’s almost like a treasure hunt because yes, it gives you an exact point, but that doesn’t mean it’s right there. It takes some digging to find exactly what it’s trying to show you.

For my first solo Randonautica experience, I decided to stick to the car. I didn’t want to be getting out and walking through people’s yards and other places by myself, so I kept it light. I went to four different points and drove around for about an hour. It was nice to get out of the house and feel like I have a sense of freedom. It wasn’t the grand adventure that I’m so desperately wanting to find, but it was a solid first day.

For next week, I’m going to plan a day trip for the weekend, and try to get in some random drives throughout the week. My main focus right now is not to find myself and the meaning of life right away, though it would be nice, but to get back into the groove of exploring and learn to be comfortable not knowing where I am or where I’m going.

Just One Thing

Just One Thing

Who would’ve thought that watching City Slickers with my man on a Wednesday night would be such a life changing experience?

*insert billy crystal gif here*

To say that I related to Billy Crystal’s character would be a total understatement. With every word he said, facial expression he gave, and action he took, either I would turn to my dude and say “is that me??” Or he would turn to me and ask the same. I understood how he felt, having a standard life that he just wasn’t ok with. I understood his feeling like there has to be something more out there. 

And then my man Curly went and said to him, “the meaning to life is just one thing.” When Billy Crystal asked what that one thing was, Curly replied, “that’s for you to find out.” By the end of the movie, Billy Crystal found out exactly what that one thing is, but was rude enough to not share with the audience.

You could tell that his trip with his friends had changed him completely. He understood that there was more to life than he had known about before, and he was ready to live his renewed life.

Y’all. I’m Molly, and I’m ready to find out what my one thing is.

This actually isn’t a new venture for me, I’ve been searching for “something more” for the past four years. Every time I think I get close, I realize I have gotten closer, but I’m still not there yet. Every time I think that I’ve figured it out, I realize that I’m still just as lost. 

I went from big name gym personal trainer to self employed health coach to meal prep company store manager to mindset coach in the past few years. Each thing I tried has gotten me one step closer, and mindset coaching seemed to be my one thing, but it may be more like one thing of many. I love mindset work, I’m a self proclaimed self improvement junkie, and I love empowering women to ditch what they think they should be doing and to follow their dreams. I’m just not sure if I want to do this whole insta-chick-entrepreneur-sell-myself-for-clients thing forever. 

Mindset coaching was my way to say screw off to the “should be’s” and expectations of my life and to pursue my own path. But recently, I realized that I haven’t fully released these expectations, I just transferred them from what everyone else expected of me to what I thought I should expect of myself. My career is fulfilling, and I love seeing my clients thrive, but I can’t help but think “there’s gotta be something more.”

I recently dug back into my self discovery work, specifically wracking my brain to uncover what my purpose is. I know the questions to ask, I literally coach women on asking themselves these questions on the reg, but I hadn’t taken the time to really answer these questions myself. Until now, and I found out a few things that really surprised me.

**feel free to use these questions to dig deeper into yourself. 10/10 highly recommend**

What did your 8 year old self love to do?”

As a kid, I spent my days exploring the woods behind my house. I would spend hours, by myself or with friends, walking through the woods or following the creek that ran through it, picking up any cool rocks along the way. I was a horseback rider and loved being at the barn. My favorite times on my horse were trail rides, where I rode through the woods and explored it all. When I grew up a bit, one of my favorite things to do was take my dog into the woods or hiking with me. 

“What is one thing you do that causes you to be so immersed into it that you forget to eat?”

Writing, hands down. I have two mostly done manuscripts for books that are over 20,000 words each, and that I wrote in almost no time flat. Time flies when I’m writing, and I have literally forgotten to eat most of the days I spend writing.

“If you only had one year left to live, how would you spend that year?”

This one was much easier than I expected: I would spend my year traveling the world, exploring other lands and cultures.

Between Billy Crystal and these questions, it was clear to me: the answers I’m looking for lie in the adventures that I stopped taking.

I let my fear of disappointing all of the expectations thrust upon me by either the world or by myself stop me from living. As my girl Hilary Duff says not to do in A Cinderella Story, I let my fear of striking out keep me from playing the game. My passion as a child was being outside and finding new places, my love as I grew up was adventuring, and as I continued to grow, I let the fear of the world stop me from exploring.

So, as the title of this blog says, I’m on the move for more. I’m done being a passive bystander in my life, I’m done waiting for life to happen to me, and I’m ready to start living. I am committing to adventures, to exploring, and to finding my one thing that life is all about. 

My goal for this blog? Combine my passions and find what I’m looking for. Time stops when I write and time flies when I adventure. I can’t think of a better way to find my meaning of life than to combine the two things that light me up. And hopefully, my pursuit for my purpose will give you a spark that you need to go and find yours, to combine all three of my passions in one little webpage.